Saturday, 02 August 2008
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By Ian Holm
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I had my appraisal done this week. For the past two years working in two different business centres, we have never done appraisal individually whereby each one of us will be meeting our supervisor. We simply just do our own appraisal and submit to our Senior Account Manager. But here in Shah Alam Business Centre, things are done differently. We had two stages of appraisal whereby the first one is to show our rating which were not finalised yet. The second stage was the appraisal to show our final rating. I was feeling a little bit down when I had my appraisal done and the worst part was when my Centre Head announced the rating that we had to everyone!I felt more demotivated!!! And the thing I could not stand is there are officers getting better rating despite their poor performance. How fair is that?? It's soooo double standard here and so much of favouritism. The non-bumis are having difficulty to survive and constantly being pickep up for their not so good performance even though they are doing a good job. I hate being in this centre. I hate being here in Peninsular. Working in Sabah is so much different. I do admit that the workload is pretty much the same. But it's the people that driving me nuts and the working environment is not so conducive. Here, you need 'spread some butter' (metaphorically speaking) to your superior to get things to favor on your side and I am not that kind of person.I will hate the sight of me if I do that and what do i get by doing that? The management will even wants more of me and drained me out. So what's the point of doing that?? Exactly, it will not benefit me at all.
I know that by dwelling like this will not going to do much help for myself. So I decided to just commit my work the best I can. I have start bringing my back my work for the weekend. I WILL TRY MY BEST TO SQUEEZE IN SOME TIME TO DO MY PROPOSAL. In my department, SPEED is the utmost requirement. So I just have to sacrifice a little bit of my time to rest during the weekend. My option to go back late during the weekdays is a big NO NO for me. I can only stay back maybe once or twice a week. Other than that, I am going back on time.
Dear God, give me strength to go through this difficult time.
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Comments (4)
Sedih juga baca ur stories....mmg demotivated mcm tu...just be patience, pray to God and you'll be ok :).
So far still surviving...trying not to think so much about the stress walaupun memang sudah stress. Yes praying does help.
*HUGS* I so sedih lah hear your predicament. I also stress about being here vs being on Borneo (Sabah and Swak) - I miss you lah....and I will be praying for you too!
Not that I am asking for sympathy by posting this entry. I just feel this is my only channel to vent out my frustration and dissapointment besides sharing it with my hubby and close friends.
Thanks dee. Really need that HUGS (virtually speaking). DO you remember the time when both of us needed a hug and we just hugged each other for comfort? miss those time...